Am I bi?
This is something that I first got an inkling of thinking about probably around five years ago, but have been thinking about A LOT for about the last six months. I don't know how to know for sure because I haven't had any experience (besides cuddling) with either gender, and I don't think I really can know until I do. I expressed this feeling to four of my really close friends back in December. Two of them took it really well. One of them was fine with it but had a lot of questions. The fourth, who is T (I have mentioned him before) took it not very well at all.
This is what I said to all of them:
I think I am bisexual. Then they all asked me why I thought that, so I said.
I was talking about it to someone else (anonymously) and they said that if the thought of making out/ having sex with a girl doesn't gross me out then I probably am. That's the simplest way to explain it without going into every thing.
T expressed all of his thoughts and opinions and I think we both had a go at each other a little bit and said some hurtful things ( I kind of want to post the whole convo, but I think that's a little too personal) and now I have only talked to T once since then. I wish it wasn't so hard to reach out to him, but I am afraid of that he is uncomfortable with the situation and doesn't want anything to do with me.
I don't know how I would ever come out to my parents who are very religious in our church. I feel like they would act the same way T did.
I still think I am and I find myself watching videos with titles like "When a girl is confused about her sexuality". I am honestly just so confused and don't know what to do. I just wish I was brave enough and confident enough to approach a boy or girl and start up a conversation that eventually leads to a relationship. I am so sick and tired of being alone all the time.
