So part of the reason I'm failing my classes is because I don't go to them. I don't go because I know that even if I got a one hundred on everything else in the classes I would still get a D/F. So that makes me think, What's the point?
I think part of the reason i don't sleep at night is because my sleeping schedule has gotten off. So instead of sleeping from 11AM-7PM, I sleep from 4/5 AM- 12/2 PM. I don't really know how to fix that but it's kind of important. The other reason I don't sleep is because of my ridiculously loud roommates. One of them has a boyfriend over all hours of the night and they watch their movies super loud. It doesn't help that my room is right next to the living room. The girl I share a room with snores.... Really loud. (I know you read these so I'm sorry if i offend you). I know there is nothing she can do to help it, but it keeps me up. I was blasting my music and could still hear her last night, aka three loud things. So I turned off my music and waited it out.
My thoughts are really bad some days, like yesterday. Other days they are super good, like Tuesday. Tuesday I went a super fun adventure with my friends, in short we got chocolate and saw a zebra. Yesterday I just kept thinking of how easy it would be to take a whole bunch of pills and just end it. I don't think I would ever be brave enough or selfish enough to do it, but lately...I don't know. Its just sounds too easy.
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