Wow. It's been almost a year. After looking back at my old posts I just wanted to cry. Its really hard to read those things about anyone, and knowing that I said them myself is horrible. Life is still hard. There will always be rough days and i just haven't quite learned how to cope yet.
      Here is a little update. I have new job. I am basically a chauffeur. I drive this kid to his dance lessons and sit there and read my books. Its great, but can also be really boring. Things with my mom have gotten better, they aren't great, but they're better. Therapy is hard but it helps.
     There is so much I want to say, but its late (or early depending on how you look at it 1:52 AM).
I have all these thought jumbled up in my brain and i don't know how to put them into words. Its hard to write about all that's happened in almost a year. So i'll just say this: Keep a journal. It can be a blog or a diary or whatever you want. But record your life and no matter how dull it seems, believe me its not.